Is when the chemo is due to start. That is unless I am eligible for a trial, the RIO trial, which I have decided to do if I can.  Here’s the technical bit – to be eligible I have to be ‘triple negative’ – i.e. negative for all 3 hormone receptors and/or BRCA (the breast…

Shocking, I know. Not entirely sure I will recover from realising it….but…sadly, its true. However, since I will be 49 soon, the shiny, lycra one piece is just not so flattering anymore….the cape is of course a different thing altogether. Remembering some of the funnier moments in the Marsden on Wednesday…The Man in the hospital…

So – 6 months of chemo, just a little under, surgery after, radiation after that. Apparently a year…or maybe a bit less… Waiting to get tagged/micro chipped/punctured…. Also waiting to hear if I will have private cover for at least the 6 months of chemo. I hope so because I met the doc who I…

Waiting to see the oncologist, with The Man. I am with The Man, not the oncologist because that would be kind of weird. Not of course that this journey has suffered from lack of weird already. On that note, I bet that this oncologist won’t be as wonderful as Dr ISIS…nor as entertaining…. A buxom,…

A quick thing while I think of it. Some people, and some of you, refer to battling/fighting/overcoming cancer. I completely and utterly get where you are coming from, and not least with me since as we all know, I do battle pretty well 🙂 On this journey though, and for reasons I cannot fully explain…

And the flight is not delayed, so far at least! Last time I was notified, and I have been obsessively checking all the airport sites which show it leaving on time – yippppeeee!! Is is appropriate to run out of the arrivals gate and throw myself at The Man at high speed, flinging my case…

In tears, feeling exhausted. The mood swings are intense and while I am doing my best to roll with them, it can be, as we say in my line of work, a challenge. What we mean, and what I mean now, is that they can be an absolute fucking nightmare –  saying challenge is putting…

We used to have a quote’s board in the Somalia programme when I worked there – full of funny and inappropriate quotes – I loved that board, made me smile every time. I think I may start one for my cancer. So, as I told you, I wrote to some of the parents in Yani…

I said to Hayley. Her response – ‘oh fuck, now I’m really concerned’. Me, ‘umm, not so concerned about me having cancer, really concerned about Amman growing on me???’ Amman is dull. Looks the same, literally – majority of buildings are the same colour, sleepy, repressed to a degree, not a huge amount happening, safe…