My hair started to fall out this morning….not massively yet, but definitely a lot more in the shower than normal, and each time I run my hands over my hair some comes out. Apparently its very different for everyone – some lose it gradually, some in big chunks within days. No matter how many jokes…

I probably shouldn’t even be mentioning this here, but will claim temporary (permanent?!?) insanity if they arrest me….there is an ongoing investigation into fraud with a local NGO that the agency I am working with have been dragged into. And of course I have managed to be in the middle of it all – well,…

And more new things to learn – honestly, this is more and more like some sort of weird experiment with myself as the guinea pig. Bizarrely fascinating.  First – the injections. Apparently you are at greater risk of blood clots when on chemo, so you have to inject yourself the day before and the day…

I just bought a pair of Birkenstocks. For fuck’s sake. And I actually really like them. 

Yesterday was tough – the ups and downs can be, what do we say in the NGO world, ‘challenging’. Fucking crap would be closer to the truth. So from buzzing the day before, to crashing yesterday – mainly I think from tiredness. Well, also from going to see the lovely, but completely insane, woman who…

Hahahahahaha – I have just realized that for a limited amount of time I can literally pull my hair out when I’m frustrated. How fucking cool would that be in a work meeting or something?!!!!! And – no waxing needed. The hairs on my body are starting to disappear…. 2 pluses to chemotherapy 🙂

Day 6 and surfacing. I have so far survived my first chemo – pretty bloody cool :). I know now what to expect – assuming of course it is the same for the next 3 rounds of this type of chemo. Days 1 & 3 were the toughest, day 2 weirdly good, days 4 &…

And how wonderful would it have been to have worn it for my first chemo?!? Wonder if I’ll have the guts to wear it for my second…. But who did send it?!?! I’m in The Man’s house but Hayley, somewhat confused, told me it arrived yesterday – I was cracking up laughing. So – it’s…

And I’m still alive! Well OK, we all knew I would be but allow me some drama…you know the line….I have cancer and all that. Yesterday was pretty hellish – starting from around 3.30am. BUT, the anti nausea meds worked, and are still working, wonders which had made all the difference. I can cope with…

So, as the Man pointed out, I will likely be bald and fat. Since I actually got the chemo I will of course get fat…eating a snack every 2 hours is recommended along with the anti nausea meds..:which must mean peanut M&M’s surely? Right now I feel like I’m stoned, hugely bloated and very tired….

I have however, so far: Got lost 3 times around the hospital Dealt with my consultant who was sadly rather dismissive, having been lovely the first time I met him Pissed myself laughing with Claire more than 3 times Been sent to accounts where there was general confusion and of course liberal doses of paper…

Or C-day (chemo)….or B-day (breast)….bugger, can’t think of one for A-day…. So yesterday I was chatting on skype chat to a wonderful work colleague based in Split (who knows I have cancer) – its been insane trying to get all in place for this delivery to Syria tomorrow (pushed back from today) and she has…