Arrived Friday night, had an amazing 24 hours, didn’t go into the office today (Sun – Thurs working week here) and just found out that its a Bank Holiday tomorrow – yippppeeeee!!! But I did lose the plot this morning…early hours and on into the start of the day. The Man has had a flu/cough…

Today I was in my (worsening) chemo brain mode, crossed a main road to get to a bus stop, realised half way that actually the bus stop I needed was the same side of the road. So stopped half way, dragging 2 cases (on my way to the airport) and turned back….to the bemusement of…

Dare I say it, but I seem to be, slowly, recovering from the insomnia…Using a meditation and sleep app. Oh – and completely changing my life. I have managed to get around 6 hours each night – still not enough of course, but significantly more than before and its improving. I always get to sleep…

Very, very hard to not break into the Wizard of Oz song – ‘Ding, dong, the witch is dead’ – witches in this case!! But they have gone. They were there on Tuesday as Dr Aloof said he couldn’t feel the tumour on the lymph node, I checked after and could feel them both. Now,…

I figured it must be time for a hair update. I know of course you were all dying to ask, fascinated even, so I thought I would save you the trouble. My right half eyebrow appears to have grown back somewhat and I still have eyebrows (yipppeeee), my eyelashes are thinner again – MUST get…

From no posts to two in one morning…I really never will be balanced and measured…. In short, I feel like I need to get back in control of my life (with cancer) and my treatment. It was crystal clear to me when I saw Dr Aloof on Tuesday that I did not feel safe with…

Day 4 – pros: Following my (wonderful) acupuncture appointment yesterday, the haze lifted. i.e. the darkness went and some (its relative) clarity has returned. Its Saturday. I like Saturday’s – its the one day where nobody is working – not those on a Mon – Fri work week nor those on a Sun – Thurs…

24 hours since my, hopefully, last EC chemo. Doc update as follows: He is really fucking starting to irritate me.  He feels (literally) that the lumps have shrunk and I am responding very well. Without wishing to put a downer on that, he did say that before and the radiologist said only a very, very…

And up since 3am. As I just typed in an e-mail, if the doctor today doesn’t give me something akin to elephant tranquillisers, I may pin him up against the wall with a knife to his throat. Well, perhaps not the knife, but you get the point – pun intended. I am completely over the…

Really are the answer. The heaviness of cancer and the darkness of the tragedies that are happening across the world are intense. We are all, I imagine, affected by what happened in Paris and Beirut, the resulting spotlight that shines (briefly) on countries like Yemen and Syria which shows us flashes of the extent of…

Getting on top of myself more like. OK, slowly taking back some control over my life, my wellbeing and my bedroom. The latter meaning my actual bedroom – don’t panic, wasn’t planning to regale you all with stories about my sex life. Not least that The Man is in Amman so hardly much to tell. …

To my new home and to life back in London.  You know I have said on here a few time that this whole rollercoaster has felt as if the ground under me randomly falls away and I fall between the cracks with no warning? And how it’s like contantly waking up and all of my…