I was saying yesterday that I could come up with some innovative ice breakers for the workshop:

‘I have cancer. Break into groups of 4 and discuss’

‘On the projector is a picture of me – take these sticky note pads and each write down one thing you can do for me’

Instead, I ended up having a couple of surreal conversations….one man telling me all about his wife’s breast cancer, stopping me when I went to say anything about mine; another telling me about both his parents have been sick in the last 3 weeks, his dad with cancer and how it really changes your life perspective. I agree, and continued on the topic when he says, ‘but yes, you know, when its your parents’. Umm. Bloody funny. I am the most private person I know when it comes to my personal life having nothing to do with my professional life, yet here I am with something so very personal obvious to everyone. However, did you know that really, its very different when its your parents….

Have agreed work will change, details tbc with Colin today, The Man arriving tonight, we have Friday and Saturday together here in Beirut, I head home on Sunday, he goes back to Amman. And life will slow down, Sonia style, for now.

And I am sleeping. Thank fuck I am sleeping. And quite honestly, after all the drugs I have in my system I really don’t notice this one – as in, I don’t feel stoned or anymore weird than with all the others so that is good. And I got a rather sudden and severe bladder infection yesterday – but a lovely, lovely friend who is a nurse sorted it out in 15 minutes – antibiotics, thermometer, cranberry juice and I am on the mend. Have to be so very careful with infections on chemo….

Can’t wait to go home and see the kids and our new home – and my own room!!!!!