Is the sentence and incredibly strong feeling I woke up to this morning. By sentence, I mean this was the phrase going around my head – as opposed to waking up to a piece of paper randomly appearing with this written on it….

All of you, Hayley (who doesn’t read this blog), The Man (who is banned from reading this blog ;)), the relative strangers who form the ‘parents group’ stepping in to look after my children – are carrying me. 

How incredible. I quite literally feel like I am resting on the wings of angels, gently flying me through this journey. Of course I believe I will be fine – how could I not be with this level of love and support? 

So much of this journey has been a blur, often feeling like I am in a haze (not just a chemo one), often edging on pretty surreal. I understand why now. Because all of you are absorbing so much of the ups and downs, cushioning me, holding me, protecting me. 

Did I mention surreal? As I am writing this rather deep, emotional realization I am also listening to ACDC’s Back in Black blaring through my headphones. Kind of sums it all up really :).

There is a magic in play around this. Something very, very special has come into force around this illness which I do not pretend to understand, but I am so incredibly grateful for. 

Thank you. To you all, to those who may never read this or hear it from me, to whatever I may or may not believe in.