From the ultrasound yesterday :).

The tumour in my breast has pretty much disappeared – they could only find it from the marker that was put in (remember the ‘microchipping exercise…..?) and what they could see was tiny and she thought could be scar tissue. Apparently cancer cells either just disappear or can form scar tissue. The second tumour in my lymph node is still there, it was the larger tumour, but is a quarter of the size that is was in December.

I was stunned – literally – for hours. It is bloody amazing – alters my whole outlook on next steps, fear of recurrence, and all else. It looks like I may get my ‘full and complete response’ to chemo since I had 3 left after the scan (had chemo yesterday after the ultrasound) which really puts me in good shape for the future.

This day in 2 weeks, I will have finished my 6 months of chemo – and have had it work amazingly well. Fucking brilliant.

And, because my life is of course never straightforward, I woke up to an e-mail today from the HR person who is now back in LA asking for a call on Monday, when my sick leave is over, to discuss next steps. The last time she mentioned next steps, it was ending my contract post sick leave….I then went on to find out my boss, and supposed friend, resigned two weeks ago and his last day was yesterday. I found this out after I messaged him, amazingly he hasn’t replied, and someone else told me. For fuck’s sake.

Given the choices, there is of course no question that the choice of having good news re the cancer and potentially crap news from work is a no brainer….having good news from both would be pretty cool though.

Of course, I am stressed about potentially no income, but I am also smiling from the inside out about my results. And it feels like a very long time since I have smiled like this.