The swelling is completely normal. Not that anyone thought to tell me before today – but Fiona, the lovely surgeon, told me today. It is very common after chemo and can last for a few weeks. Phew. 

Went in today for my surgery pre assessment visit followed by an appointment with the surgeon. This was after I was told my health insurance has been cancelled. HR had told me that I was covered for this month, and to get my surgical pre authorization letter before switching to the insurance I will be…

I’ll be in The Marsden, likely having had my lymph node radiated, excessively grumpy due to no caffeine since 6am and begging for a general anaesthetic. I’ve been waiting for the latter for 6 bloody months…missed out on it when I got my port fitted as they did it by local in Jordan…on my list…

Or perhaps its there all the time…but I could swear I’ve had some (relatively speaking) lucid times over the past days. Although I do keep getting reminders that I am perhaps not as present as I think I am. 2 nights ago, Hayley comes into my room saying ‘we must book the kids hair…’ then…

Has to be a good sign! Can’t be restless when you are completely exhausted…well, at least I can’t.  Kids dad over and with them at home for a few days, I’m at The Man’s since Saturday, back home tomorrow, Hayley with a friend and…I am restless. Edgy perhaps is a better word. This day in…

I wonder how many Friday’s it will take before I stop celebrating the fact I don’t have to go for chemo? Feels bloody good today, as the first of I hope many, many more. Tired today, but neither yesterday nor today was the haze as thick, more just normal exhaustion. Ha – also wonder how…

I had my first haircut today! My hair is obviously very short, much greyer than before, on top particularly, fluffy like baby hair, but long enough for a trim :). And it looks great actually – slightly wavy on top so I may get my curly hair wish. Not sure I dare tempt fate and…

Bloody hell its whacked me this time. Spent as much as I could of the last 48 hours in bed, completely flattened. I have no idea why not, but I didn’t expect this level of this debilitation. I can see all the logic – I’ve kept going the last 6 months and now I can…

Fuck, that feels so good to write.  The hangover/haze was super strong yesterday, slight steroid buzz today so likely flattened tomorrow. But for the last time. (Always feel a little superstitious writing ‘last chemo’ – but I mean it in the context of this treatment. Hopefully of course forever, but not going to tempt fate!)…

On a train from The Man’s house heading to London for my last chemo at 12pm!  Some of the things I will no longer have to do: Play ‘hunt the eyelash with the mascara stick’ every morning  Carry around at least a litre of coconut water with me at all times Wear some make up…

So, as one does, I decided we would all go and visit a boarding school in Suffolk yesterday…and hire a car, taking into account I haven’t driven for the almost 18 months since I moved to London. At the tail end of 6 months of chemo. Made perfect sense to me at the time. Actually,…

Full on chemo haze and hangover from yesterday’s chemo – but otherwise all fine. If that makes any sense. Or in fact if I make any sense. Ever. I honestly cannot remember what I was like pre chemo – how nuts is that?!?! So this week I have seen Fiona, the lovely surgeon, Amanda, the…