Since I last posted. That’s what happens when you live life through the looking glass….

Leaving for Thailand on 15th September – booked it when I was still in Kenya. I wondered why I chose that date since I could have chosen any. Realised the other day that it was that date last year I started chemo… Pretty fucking incredible to be heading to Thailand one year later 🙂

The kids are doing amazingly with Brian and at their new school – it is all so very right. Amazing. 

I started this 3 days ago…and now back to it. So, the other news is I have met a new man and we appear to be mutually smitten. Currently on the train back from his place…as always, my timing is impeccable. I met him a couple of months ago, we got together a couple of weeks ago and I leave next week. And yes, I do see all the positives, absolutely do, but I really am sick of goodbyes. Freedom comes with a price – I always laugh (or get frustrated with, depending on my mood) at the people who will endlessly describe me as lucky or envy the freedom I have. It’s always possible, but equally always has a price attached.

Cancer, right now, is feeling further and further away. My theory, so far, is that if I keep living and loving life, then that automatically pushes aside any fears about recurrence. I have often imagined myself dying of cancer, after it returning, and I am at complete peace with it when I see that I have lived and loved my life to the absolute max. That is honouring me. 

So, my mission, should I choose to accept it, is to do just that – live and love life to the fullest. This message will self destruct in 30 seconds :).