Today. One month ago today…it certainly hasn’t been dull…but I am working on that.

Realising that my original 3 month plan may have been optimistic, in terms of only needing that time to get back on my feet. I am only now beginning the whole unwinding process, as in over the last week or so. To say the exhaustion is extreme, on every single possible level, would be an understatement…not a surprise…but still quite mind blowing in its intensity at times.

So my entire focus is, and actually can only  be, that right now. Letting the unwind, and some unravelling as well, happen. Only when that has happened can I start thinking about getting fit, strong etc – I quite literally don’t have the strength right now. I can do one thing a day, most days, and thats it. So today it was meeting a friend of a friend who was on the island for a day – I got back here around 5pm (its 10.40pm now) and collapsed. As in, couldn’t even get it together to go out to get food or a massage or anything…yes, life is hard ;-). What I mean is that is the extent of my energy.

The woman I met today is…unusual. Albino, partially blind, talks a LOT. What is it with people I meet here – well, some at least – fuck, can they talk. At me. I liked her, but 2.5 hours later I was done. That seems to be the most I can spend with anyone and the rest of the time I am, happily, alone. Lots of random people I talk to, a couple next door who leave on Sunday who are great, another couple I have met out and about – the husband said to me the other day, ‘you are always alone’ – I replied, ‘Yes, by choice’. Fair play, he did laugh.

There is a lovely beach trader woman who I have chatted to a number of times-  she was always interested in how my leg was getting on – very sweet. So, I wanted to help her out and agreed to a manicure yesterday. Quite possibly the worst manicure I have ever had, and that is saying something…the colour is like Tippex, with a hint of blue, plus some left over glitter thrown in. The nail filing is…words fail me actually. I think perhaps to support her in future I will pay her to NOT give me a manicure.