I had my first haircut today! My hair is obviously very short, much greyer than before, on top particularly, fluffy like baby hair, but long enough for a trim :). And it looks great actually – slightly wavy on top so I may get my curly hair wish. Not sure I dare tempt fate and…

Bloody hell its whacked me this time. Spent as much as I could of the last 48 hours in bed, completely flattened. I have no idea why not, but I didn’t expect this level of this debilitation. I can see all the logic – I’ve kept going the last 6 months and now I can…

Fuck, that feels so good to write.  The hangover/haze was super strong yesterday, slight steroid buzz today so likely flattened tomorrow. But for the last time. (Always feel a little superstitious writing ‘last chemo’ – but I mean it in the context of this treatment. Hopefully of course forever, but not going to tempt fate!)…

On a train from The Man’s house heading to London for my last chemo at 12pm!  Some of the things I will no longer have to do: Play ‘hunt the eyelash with the mascara stick’ every morning  Carry around at least a litre of coconut water with me at all times Wear some make up…

So, as one does, I decided we would all go and visit a boarding school in Suffolk yesterday…and hire a car, taking into account I haven’t driven for the almost 18 months since I moved to London. At the tail end of 6 months of chemo. Made perfect sense to me at the time. Actually,…

Full on chemo haze and hangover from yesterday’s chemo – but otherwise all fine. If that makes any sense. Or in fact if I make any sense. Ever. I honestly cannot remember what I was like pre chemo – how nuts is that?!?! So this week I have seen Fiona, the lovely surgeon, Amanda, the…

And on with the rollercoaster – but up this evening :). So – met with Fiona, the surgeon I met with first at The Marsden. Still as great now as she was then. In short: The written report from the ultrasound last Friday said no tumours left When she felt, she said the remaining lump…

Is receiving an e-mail from my now former company telling me my end date was 28th February, can I fill out the separation paperwork and I will not get paid for the 29th February. And some other stuff we apparently discussed in our meeting on 9th February – that would be the one where I…

Until my last chemo! And I have managed to survive today without proposing to anyone – not bad, given my February history over the years… Life is still very surreal – the sense of disconnectedness is pretty strong most of the time – wandering around feeling slightly bewildered and very spacy. Yeah, yeah – I…

From the ultrasound yesterday :). The tumour in my breast has pretty much disappeared – they could only find it from the marker that was put in (remember the ‘microchipping exercise…..?) and what they could see was tiny and she thought could be scar tissue. Apparently cancer cells either just disappear or can form scar…

Yes, definitely a link to all of those. I mentioned February has always been a time for change – not sure if I mentioned that I’m also crap with dates? So, my divorce finally came through this month, my ex mentioned it was almost 10 years to the day we had got married (I genuinely…

In terms of treatment – here is where I am at: 4 x 3 weekly EC chemo’s – tick 9 x weekly Taxol chemo’s – tick 5 days of anxiety meds – tick Appointments to see surgeon, radiologist and Prof not so aloof over next 2 weeks – tick Researching different types of surgery from…