It’s been a while since I have met some of the Angels I met so many of at the start of this journey. Well, it’s more likely that I have met many but have been too caught up in myself/tiredness/darkness to have realised. Today I met 2. Went to buy a lipstick at Mac at…

I wish I had known a lot of this before I started, I hope I won’t ever have to utilise it again. In case you have any friends/colleagues about to start on chemo, do pass on the following if they are interested: After you get diagnosed, take time to absorb what that means for you….

645am, about to wake up kids for school, feeling tired but a whole lot better than day 3 post Taxol last week, wondering how The Man and I will juggle work, heading back to Amman on Sunday… And the madness continues. Work have set up an HQ team to deal with the situation – a…

Yippppeeeee!! On my way home from #3 Taxol – 9 left to go!!

Is the sentence and incredibly strong feeling I woke up to this morning. By sentence, I mean this was the phrase going around my head – as opposed to waking up to a piece of paper randomly appearing with this written on it…. All of you, Hayley (who doesn’t read this blog), The Man (who…

And how to make the two meet in the middle. I do quite regularly wonder if I am in denial – namely because there is no part of me that does not believe I will be fully cured from this cancer. And I don’t mean that in a forced, relentlessly positive way – I genuinely…

Feel like I should be – New Year’s Eve and all that. Come up with something meaningful, perhaps even vaguely poignant or at the very least funny.  Or else I’ll just waffle a little. I’ve struggled quite a lot when I have seen pictures or remembered how happy I was in the months before I…

I wonder is that a side effect specific to the 2nd dose of Taxol…? If so, the next 10 will be interesting – who knows where I may end up at that point!?! It was fine today – I had lovely company, I  slept for pretty much the whole actual chemo (yes, I was a…

Time to switch the messaging. I have been thinking a lot about positive manifestations and messaging – for myself as opposed to globally…. And finally this fits.  No more ‘I have cancer’. I needed that up until now to land it – to accept I had cancer, to absorb the 101 different impacts of having…

Doesn’t really have a ring to it….though phonetically it works (is that the right word?!?) Actually having a good day – 2.30pm, not dressed, lots of coffee, huge fry up brunch….very chilled…except I forgot my anti viral tablets in London so have to go and get them. Much as I really don’t want to, I…

Or think, or say, a lot of the time these days. Random thoughts that float around my mind all together, mostly in a jumble and at the same time,  follow: I am recovering from cancer. What (very large) tattoo shall I get to celebrate when I am cancer free? What excuse will I use for…

I did want to flag early signs of breast cancer that I missed….details re boobs (well, one boob at least) so don’t read on if you don’t want to think about tits… Hard not to feel quite stupid for having missed them, to be honest. Yes, I know, gentle on myself and all that…but I…