Feeling SO much better!! Even managed to cycle the kids into school this morning – on my new, fixed bike. And I felt great. As opposed to last I tried and it nearly killed me – I was terrified that I had got so completely unfit as its not a long cycle…then when I got…

I am now at home, finally, after a hellish afternoon at the Marsden. As per my post of the other day, I had managed to keep a sense of humour at all the fuck ups by the nurses and team from when I was admitted, but it wore thin today. The ‘normal’ fuck ups continued…

With an infection of the seroma – which I learnt today is the fluid the body produces post trauma (in this case, surgery) to help the healing process. Or not it appears in my case. So, hospital humour/fuck ups so far: Since being admitted to the Marsden yesterday around 5pm, I have had 4 nurses…

Was out on Saturday night to celebrate The Man’s birthday and my left boob started hurting a lot. Obviously didn’t get into it at the time…then through the night it was getting worse – seriously swollen, red, hot (boob, not me, sadly) and bloody painful. Called the Marsden Sunday lunchtime as it was getting worse,…

The rollercoaster is not over, despite me thinking (hoping) and acting like it is many days…. 3 weeks post surgery, I could not wear my normal bras. Tried twice and after an hour I would swell, it hurt and I had to take it off. Then I went to John Lewis on Tuesday post wonderful…

On my hairline and eyebrows. There is definite stubble on both – I will end up having sliver hair with dark roots and I have no idea how my eyebrows will end up! But for the latter, at first I thought it was stains left from the new eyebrow draw in stuff I’d got (and…

Just left the Marsden after a great meeting with the radiotherapist – the man whose name escapes me, but who will be working with the barking woman I saw last time! To the important details – I will have 3 weeks and one day of radiotherapy, starting 13th May. Have to laugh – Friday 13th…

I just wrote an update to the bunch of parents at the kids school who have helped out so much the last two terms with after school care, lunches etc etc – they really have been amazing! And realised how very much has gone on over the last 2 months since my last update to…

It came to me last night – how to describe (for myself) where I am at right now. It is like I was in my home, which is also where my work was based, when it went up in flames. After the firemen struggled to get me out and all of us suffering from smoke…

That is the technical term – I am now officially in remission. (Western) medicine is very much designed for the medics and not the patient – in this case, I personally find the terminology quite negative. You are not ‘cured’ of cancer until 5 years have passed, progression is measured in 5 & 10 year…

There was a very small amount of cancer left where the tumour was, removed during surgery and the margins around this were all clear. 15 lymph nodes were removed (lovely surgeon didn’t mean to remove that many) and only the one which had the lump originally had a small bit of cancer left. The remaining…

In about 4 or so hours, I will be getting my pathology results from the lovely surgeon. I haven’t actually been nervous up until now, which I suppose is not bad going. There is no real reason to think that there with be bad news – but quite honestly I really don’t want any news….