I figured it must be time for a hair update. I know of course you were all dying to ask, fascinated even, so I thought I would save you the trouble. My right half eyebrow appears to have grown back somewhat and I still have eyebrows (yipppeeee), my eyelashes are thinner again – MUST get…

From no posts to two in one morning…I really never will be balanced and measured…. In short, I feel like I need to get back in control of my life (with cancer) and my treatment. It was crystal clear to me when I saw Dr Aloof on Tuesday that I did not feel safe with…

Day 4 – pros: Following my (wonderful) acupuncture appointment yesterday, the haze lifted. i.e. the darkness went and some (its relative) clarity has returned. Its Saturday. I like Saturday’s – its the one day where nobody is working – not those on a Mon – Fri work week nor those on a Sun – Thurs…

24 hours since my, hopefully, last EC chemo. Doc update as follows: He is really fucking starting to irritate me.  He feels (literally) that the lumps have shrunk and I am responding very well. Without wishing to put a downer on that, he did say that before and the radiologist said only a very, very…

And up since 3am. As I just typed in an e-mail, if the doctor today doesn’t give me something akin to elephant tranquillisers, I may pin him up against the wall with a knife to his throat. Well, perhaps not the knife, but you get the point – pun intended. I am completely over the…

Really are the answer. The heaviness of cancer and the darkness of the tragedies that are happening across the world are intense. We are all, I imagine, affected by what happened in Paris and Beirut, the resulting spotlight that shines (briefly) on countries like Yemen and Syria which shows us flashes of the extent of…

Getting on top of myself more like. OK, slowly taking back some control over my life, my wellbeing and my bedroom. The latter meaning my actual bedroom – don’t panic, wasn’t planning to regale you all with stories about my sex life. Not least that The Man is in Amman so hardly much to tell. …

To my new home and to life back in London.  You know I have said on here a few time that this whole rollercoaster has felt as if the ground under me randomly falls away and I fall between the cracks with no warning? And how it’s like contantly waking up and all of my…

Or not…on the plane back London from Beirut. Can’t wait to get into my new home, see the kids, move back into that life. They moved on 24th October and I haven’t lived in our new home yet – more of the surreal that is my life since July.  And desperately sad to leave The…

I have lost about half of my eyelashes and eyebrows so far – evenly, i.e. a general thinning. However, the outer half of my right eyebrow appears to have disappeared. For fuck’s sake.  Let me list my hair loss: Half of the aforementioned eyebrow  About 80% of the hair on my head. I have a…

Lying in bed in my favourite Beirut hotel, with The Man, having just booked spa treatments, about to get breakfast….and drinks with old and wonderful Beirut friends this evening. Bliss.  Today and hopefully tomorrow I will forget I have cancer, forget my career (although I did just get my new regional position confirmed which makes…

Margaret who joined the bald gang today!!! Wonderful 🙂 🙂 Thank you my friend – so incredibly touched you did this – and you look bloody great! Yes, I had just woken up…..