Which really is intensely painful. 

I called from Amman last Wednesday to get a referral to the Royal Marsden. GP said she was on it. Called me Thursday to say she’s asked the consultant at original hospital to make the referral as it would be quicker. I had my doubts.

I received a letter at home for an MRI from original hospital for 4th August. Great. Another diagnostic test, which of course I have already done, but the point being that it would be weeks before treatment.

I followed up re referral every day with everyone. Nothing has moved. Utterly lost the plot the today… Called the GP, she put me through online referral system she didn’t want to do last Wednesday as it would take too long. And now an appointment for the Royal Marsden on 3rd or 4th August…but she believes I will get a referral before that. 

The man had also followed up on Thursday with a secretary at the Royal Marsden who is onto it, after I followed up with her today. 

In short, a lot of chasing for hopeful results but I have absolutely no idea when I will get to fucking see an oncologist and get a treatment plan. It’s shit, it sucks, I hate waiting.