Two days to go – in fact, this time in 2 days I will have had my chemo and have an idea of what it’s all about. Those of you who are asking me details on the actual chemo session are making me laugh – I have no bloody idea either :). Will tell you on Tuesday evening….

In the meantime, my life continues to be no less surreal. Disclaimer: the following is actually true, the cancer and/or any related madness has not travelled to my brain nor am I having any sort of breakdown. Friend: lets skype call later. Me: great. A few hours later. Friend: home now, let skype. Me: OK, just putting kids to bed, 15 mins. Friend (20 mins later): I’m needy, where are you? Me (thinking): WTF, 5 minutes over time. Me (10 mins after that): OK, here now, will call. I call and my friend is on the other end of the skype, in her living room, dressed as a lobster. And her first comment to me is ‘the costume is a bit short, I am not sure what to do about it’. The two of us fall about laughing – I am still laughing – at our 30 or 40 minute call, the whole time with her dressed as a lobster…Her life lets say is not the simplest right now, so of course going out and buying a lobster costume for a Hallowe’en party she does not know of yet is of course the most logical way to deal with it. She suggested a crab outfit for me for my chemo session – problem is, that one is too short as well and I will get cold. Ha – cold dressed crab..!!

And a lovely afternoon with cool people eating Ethiopian food – the cool people including my children. Another friend, angel, who has dropped into my life who is taking on Project Sonia’s kids. I wrote about this a while ago – the huge shift by me reaching out to the parents in Yannis and Aissa’s classes and asking for help. Well, the response has been overwhelming…I’m tearful (for a change) writing about it now. And today’s lunch was with the person who is organising all of this – so lovely people, great food, happy children…..life is good today.

I do however miss The Man – its been 2 whole days without him – yes, I hear you all, vomit inducing blah, blah…but hey…you know how it goes…I have cancer….need I finish that sentence? He really does keep me stable (yes, its all relative) and even these couple of days without him I can feel the emotions welling up again – as in, feeling less stable, more of a build of of the fear and vulnerability.  He arrives back Tuesday night, I go to his on Wednesday…nothing like throwing up all over your partner I find to induce states of joy and attraction.