Day 6 and surfacing. I have so far survived my first chemo – pretty bloody cool :).

I know now what to expect – assuming of course it is the same for the next 3 rounds of this type of chemo. Days 1 & 3 were the toughest, day 2 weirdly good, days 4 & 5 up and down, today I can function and feel it clearing. However, in general I am much slower, mentally and physically, need to pace myself, accept that it’s OK to be slower. As you can all imagine, not something quite so simple for me…..But it is all going to be about pacing for now at least.

But – I have done it! The next phase of my life has started – I’m in it and living it. I had got as far as starting my first chemo and now I’m past that – and it feels pretty good. It’s weirdly fascinating..the physical changes, the mental changes – like observing different ‘me’s’ for lack of a better way of expressing it. And of course I imagine the changes will keep happening….and I will have to keep adapting how I cope.

On Saturday The Man joined the last major part of my life – at home with the kids. Another first. And it’s gone amazing well. 

I feel good today. I’m tired, still some weird physical stuff, still mentally slow, but actually really happy. My kids are fantastic, I am so happy to be back in my family life again and life is good :).