24 hours since my, hopefully, last EC chemo. Doc update as follows:

• He is really fucking starting to irritate me. 
• He feels (literally) that the lumps have shrunk and I am responding very well. Without wishing to put a downer on that, he did say that before and the radiologist said only a very, very small bit.
• Next ultrasound in 4 weeks. NOT going alone then. Will also be starting the Taxol, weekly chemo then 
• The hot flushes are menopause. Chemo induced, but at my age likely to remain and not reverse post chemo. All good with me. 
• His aloofness/lack of engagement is leading me to feel like I just need to hurry up and get out during a visit with him. Absolutely not on. 
• He did recommend a strong sleeping tablet. And told me I could only get it from my GP….the (lovely) pharmacist in the chemo unit proved him wrong so I came home with some.
• My veins are collapsing – apparently right on schedule as it happens after your 3rd chemo. So I will get a port – inserted under your skin near your heart. I was told some people don’t want it because it requires a general anesthetic – I asked could I have one every day. Insomnia speaking…

Today has been pretty hellish – I imagine the prior 6 week insomnia spell hasn’t exactly helped. I did sleep last night in bursts, I have slept today and crossing everything possible that I will keep sleeping for the next couple of days, day and night, to catch up. I took half a dose of my morning steroids and am going to stop them now. More contradictions on that – Mr Aloof doc said its OK to not take them, Ms Lovely pharmacist said there’s a high risk of the nausea hitting me if I do. But I have a lot of anti emetics and am hoping they will do as the need for sleep overrides all else presently.