And she is lovely. Perfect. Recommended by Prof Aloof…so for all his disconnect, he actually gets me as he was spot on about her.

In short, the ‘pit’ I fall into is severe anxiety attacks – more than depression. Although she, like me, doesn’t do labels but was just finding terms to explain. When I described some of what goes on when I fall, she did say that was pretty extreme….so bizarre, isn’t it, what can become your normality? Well, mine at least anyway. 

She is all about getting through the here and now, support for this journey. Interestingly she used the term ‘walking besides me’ – do we reckon she’s seen the blog?!?!  My decisions around surgery, the kids etc etc – being able to talk to her about it will be amazing. 

So, she has prescribed meds and I am happy to take them. Will start tomorrow, she wants to get me up to the optimal dose quickly. All good with me. I trust her and this process. 

Fuck. I may actually sleep. I may get some sustained sleep.