No, I don’t have to add ‘how cancer fucks you up #83’ by saying I’ve started bird watching. 

I do however, have a dyed blue square on my boob approximately 2in x 2in big. Sorry for the TMI – but it is by my nipple and the actual surgery/scar is under my arm. The incision very kindly placed where there is a natural crease – we love the surgeon. But, point being that I was utterly confused yesterday and this morning as to a) why they had been colouring in a part of my boob (perhaps they got bored?!) and b) why they had coloured in an area that had no tumour and was not near the incision. 

Of course nothing was mentioned when I left the hospital, so googled it this morning and read that the ‘Smurf’ look is  from the radioactive dye they injected before surgery. On the note of TMI, I am peeing the same colour blue as well…. The dye was to ‘light up’ the lymph nodes ahead of surgery – and to provide amusement for all concerned as while I was asleep they clearly giggled and said ‘there goes another Smurf we created’. 

Apparently this can last for months for some people. And it really is perfect Smurf colour. Wonder what colour I should dye my other boob – matching or contrast? 

Other than that, my steroid induced eating yesterday consisted of: 2 chocolate croissants on the way home, a third of a family sized chicken pie with loads of veg when I got back followed by apple and blackberry crumble covered in masses of double cream. All between 6 – 9pm. After which I promptly fell asleep on the sofa.

I am sore and stiff today – with my matching dressings on either side..although the one on the right where they removed the port is not very painful at all. The surgery side feels like I have been repeatedly  punched in my boob in one place (not ameliorated by subsequent colouring in) and my shoulder area is also sore – apparently common from lymph node removal. Sleep was a pain since moving around hurt and i usually sleep on my left side – but all in all, I’m fine. Likely suicidal tomorrow from the steroid come down – but hey, what’s life without massive mood swings?!?! Fucked if I know anymore 🙂