How incredibly surreal – half a century! 

As I keep saying, growing older is now a very appealing prospect :). 

Thank you to so many of you for the birthday wishes, video’s, wonderful comments and all else on FB – amazing. 

I am currently on the plane, heading to the beautiful Diani, south coast of Mombasa. Honestly, how amazing is it to be able to do this on my 50th birthday?!?!

Even through my haze of exhaustion, I’m loving it. Yes, I wish I was less sore and tired, but fuck it, if I have to be so then what better place than here. Well, not on a plane, rather in Diani. 

And my incredible haven in Thailand is confirmed – I have booked it from 10th Sept for 3 months. Not sure when I will be arriving, but it’ll be around that time. I just need a couple of weeks in London to ‘land’ and rest before starting that adventure. 

I missed the man desperately last night. Weird really. I’ve heard nothing from him for close to a month, after I replied to his letter. I get all the intellectual and rational aspects and those are now stronger than the emotions, but I still miss him intensely at times.

But, the only way is up. I hated that song… I am flying (quite literally at the moment, but not in that way!) and with that take off always comes an immense sense of loss. I’ve never fully understood it, but it always goes hand in hand with the freedom. Quite honestly, a big part of it right now is pure exhaustion on every level. I think 🙂