And now on the plane from Geneva back to London. For 2 hours and then the next plane to Kenya! Yes. London to Geneva on Monday, then Geneva, London, Nairobi today…who said I complicate things…. On the plane with 2 of you – you being my 2 friends who are my family of choice :)….

Currently at the airport with the kids, flight delayed 45 mins…however, we’re all happy! Fuck, what an emotional couple of days! Would be weird if it weren’t I suppose… But, we’ve done it. All my stuff packed up for either storage or sorting out in my friend’s house before I head to Thailand. Kids stuff…

I now have a troll…Mary O’Reilly. I have blocked her nasty and unhelpful comment, and of course will keep doing so. It is a little beyond me as to why someone who doesn’t know me would feel like they have any idea about me or my life. Weird. So I feel a bit more restricted…

You know what – I rock! I quite literally only realised as I was talking to my wonderful acupuncturist earlier, what I am doing. I mean in terms of next steps. I am completely and utterly changing my life, from all that I have known and is familiar over the past 26 years. I’ve left…

Bloody hell, I’m hitting the wall of exhaustion. In fact, I think I may have ploughed through the wall a while ago…. 4 days until we leave. 4 days to panic about the 654 things that leaving one’s home entails…not least leaving with contents going to 3 different places. Hayley will be here, but I…

It’s getting closer all the time… 10 days until I leave for Geneva/Kenya with the little ones and a couple of small bags between us.  12 days until the movers come to take my stuff and put it in storage, take the kids stuff and send it to Ireland 17 days until they come and…

!!!!! During chemo, I cried one day because I saw someone running down the escalators. Really. I mean really, I cried. I was so weak, in pain, off balance that I needed all my concentration to just get on and off the escalators. At that point, I honestly didn’t believe I would ever get back…

Thank fuck!!! Just watched the entire 15 minutes of this (completely unrelated to anything) and it absolutely made my day! Get so caught up in the darkness of the world at the moment, easy to miss the bright parts. https://www.buzzfeed.com/scottybryan/get-your-freak-on?utm_term=.uk8yZE4g5#.yeVP1Vr6y I have slept for the last 2 nights which is amazing – thank you wonderful…

Is so ingrained. This limbo with The Man, while knowing it is over at the very least for now, is so against everything I normally do. Just being with the feelings, letting each day happen….Albiet that I am in my head now single – he has clearly let me go – its not neat, quite…

But not backwards 🙂 Bloody hell, what a few days. From The Marsden, which went fine, but was weirdly upsetting being there, to every emotion under the sun overwhelming me re The Man and all that, to dealing with removal companies, children’s illnesses… Prof Aloof was fine – but I wanted to punch him when…

On my way now to visit Prof Aloof. Just said to someone I am looking forward to seeing him…some weird form of Stockholm Syndrome attachment. Clearly the wonderful shrink was right about my ‘attachments’…I do keep smiling at her referring to my feelings for The Man as an attachment.  Not entirely sure why I have…

We love her. Collectively. All of us do – you all do whether you know it or not…. She basically landed the piece with me yesterday – I don’t even really know how. But she did. And nothing from The Man. Which frankly is not OK… But I am done waiting now – insofar as…